The band kept playing but I was so lost in my own little world. I just couldn't get passed the feeling that I knew him. When the show finally ended, he came up to us and Matt introduced us. Patrick, that's a nice name. We sat at a table in a more quiet corner and Pat sat right next to me...practically on my lap! There it is, that energy I felt in Matt's room and in his bed. The calm peaceful energy that made me feel like I belonged there. I could feel him all around there. And he was so close. Those who didn't know us would have thought WE were the couple, and I wanted them to think that. But he was pretty drunk even though I didn't remember seeing him drink. Must have been "the water" he was drinking during his set. And then he leaned over, completely ignoring me. I thought it was alittle strange and rude, but chalked it up as...being drunk. Nope, he knew if he turned his head towards me, he would have kissed me, right in front of his brother so this was his way of being "close" without being close!
After the hours he worked and then a show, Pat decided to lay down. He had his head right up against me leg and my first impulse was to run my finger's through his hair. Just as I was beginning to reach down, I caught myself and was yanked back into reality..this reality. The reality where I am so drawn to this guy but I'm dating his brother!!!