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Being around Pat that night awakened me. I couldn't consciously explain it but it was like I had been sleeping my entire life and feeling him next to me, I was awakened inside for the first time. I knew that time would end soon, but I didn't want it to end. I could have stayed there forever and be happy. Something inside KNEW this is where I belonged.
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The band kept playing but I was so lost in my own little world. I just couldn't get passed the feeling that I knew him. When the show finally ended, he came up to us and Matt introduced us. Patrick, that's a nice name. We sat at a table in a more quiet corner and Pat sat right next to me...practically on my lap! There it is, that energy I felt in Matt's room and in his bed. The calm peaceful energy that made me feel like I belonged there. I could feel him all around there. And he was so close. Those who didn't know us would have thought WE were the couple, and I wanted them to think that. But he was pretty drunk even though I didn't remember seeing him drink. Must have been "the water" he was drinking during his set. And then he leaned over, completely ignoring me. I thought it was alittle strange and rude, but chalked it up as...being drunk. Nope, he knew if he turned his head towards me, he would have kissed me, right in front of his brother so this was...
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We finally left and followed him to some hole in the wall joint in San Diego. I remember a bunch of people there as they had quite a following. I was sitting further back on a type of ledge where I had a great view. I remember him sitting behind his drum set and just getting lost in the music. I couldn't take my eyes off of him. He seemed so familiar like I knew him, but I knew I never met him before. (It would also be years before I realized this was "hot giy). All I know is I just felt so drawn to him and I wanted him to notice me to. My attention was diverted at one point to the singer as he started dropping to the ground. I thought he was having a seizure but he kept on singing. (I'm pretty sure he intercepted the energy I was sending to Pat. The amount of energy I was sending out..yeah,lol) Soon after, things went back to normal and my attention was directed right back to him.
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You would think that after following every haunt hot guy could have been at, our path's would have crossed! Boy did Destiny have it's work cut out for them! We weren't in the apartment to long before Michelle got married and moved out. I was the only one left but my part-time job wasn't enough so I had to move back into my parents. My boyfriend was on wespac at the time and was talking about proposing after he got back. I had plans to marry him, as he seemed "stable". A part of me did love him but he had a flaw that was difficult for me to over-look, he was very shallow. He was also planning a future of leaving the Navy and moving back to his home town in the Bay Area...where she was at. After graduation, one of the students told me the facility he worked at had a position open. I also did my internship there so this was a plus. The kicker was they required a CNA license. By the time I was able to get it, the position was already filled and so they sent m...
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It was a month later when we moved out of the hot guy's apartment complex and into our new 2 bedroom across the street from the DMV. We spend about a year there and acquired two more roommates within that time. All the boyfriends were Navy (Navy,huh?? like Pat's dad?) which made for a very active house. We all went to the same church and had alot of fun doing "do-gooder "deeds such as feeding the homeless and ministry outreach.  I thought I was the "bad girl" of the group, but actually was probably to "good" for not having sex. See, I made a pact with God that I would refrain from intercourse until I was married, if he helped me get out of the abusive relationship with Nikki's biological father. After a year and a half with that demon would turn anyone Christian!! It was a few days before Christmas when we decided to feed the homeless on Christmas day which would be difficult if we had nothing to feed them. So, we decided to hit up a couple...
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I decided I needed a change. I was working 2 full-time jobs and never having any time for my son. So, I decided to go back to school. This was the time for change and so I also decided to go back to church. I met a guy who I started dating, who also introduced me to my roommate. Her roommate was moving and I needed to get out of my parents house. I didn't want to wait, so we decided to have me move into her apartment while we looked for a 2 bedroom.  There was a park right up the street that I would take Nikki to almost every day. I noticed these two guys up there alot playing frisbee and ball with a dog, a yellow lab to be exact. Come on, who wouldn't notice, hot guy, dark shades, hat backwards and sweating under the sun??  I probably would have made my move but what would he want with a woman and a kid? Besides he is so much hotter then me! And so I let him go..
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I was born in a US Army hospital in Germany. We stayed in Germany for 2 years until my father transferred to California, the Bay Area, where he was from. He was born in a US Naval hospital in Tennessee a year and a half earlier when his father transferred to Lemore, California, leaving us only 2 hours apart. We continued to follow each other around as we grew up. The next move would be to Oregon. My dad transferred to Louisiana when I was 8. I remember that day so clearly, watching the sun come up over the mountain. I didn't want to leave, yet what could a little kid do? Soon afterwards, his family moved back to  San Diego,California. We stayed down south for two years when he was transferred again to California. We stopped through San Diego, and it felt like I belonged there. I begged my father to stay, but nope, his job was in Monterey. It would be another 8 years before destiny would intervene and I would move to San Diego. My son and I moved to my parents in El Cajon. I star...